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11.16.2011

OFF




This week has been one of those weeks that everything looks blurry, dark, endless and sad...I feel blue.
I am at a point in my life where I have let work interfere with my personal life, my dreams, my time...again, MY LIFE.
The worst part of it all is that, my job is not a "career" so it makes me feel much more worse....
Negative people at work trying to bring me down, my possibilities of growth in this Company are cero to none, and supervisors only focus on what you don't do...
I do not have time to do the things I love, to enjoy my marriage and frankly its getting to a point of no return.
Sometimes I do not want to get out of bed...and sleeping has become much more pleasurable than it should, really.
I need to make a decision...fast. May God help me.
What to do in days like these??
Should you hide below the blankets and close your eyes attempting to be unconcious only to find yourself tossing and turning? Or should you just jump out of bed and puts loads of makeup to hide the pain, only to find yourself dragging your soul on the floor with every step you take?
What to do...turn the switch OFF.


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5 comments:

Little Rus said...

I was in a situation like this once. It took me a while to realise that sometimes it's worth making yourself (and your, health, life and family) a priority. I walked out and didn't come back to the office next morning. Got another job, got another degree, became what I am today. And although in the beginning it was pretty scary just to cut everything off and start from scratch, I don't have any regrets today. And I wish you all the very best and good luck no matter what you decide to do at the end. x

moraima (mo-RYE-mah) said...

ay amiga, I'm so sorry you are feeling this way, if it makes you feel any better, that has happened to many of us. It has happened (either to me or to my husband) more than once, but something we learned a while ago, is to not think too much of the consequences, because then you don't make any changes. You try to prepare and prepare to take a different route sometimes but the truth is, you will never be completely ready for anything. Most of the time you just have to jump in with both feet, trusting just your gut. We've done it and yes it has been scary but we always push through and it feels great. As long as you have the support of somebody, even just mental support you will be fine, believe me. And something I read once and always keeps me in check: "is better to fail doing something you love, than succeed doing something you hate". Make a draft plan of what you want and go for it. Good luck!

PAPS said...

Dont be hard on yourself. There will always be good days and bad. Looks like it is more than one day though.. Hope you sort your problem fast. Take care.
www.thoughtsofpaps.com

Adriana Iris said...

stay strong keep your head up and be kind to yourself. So if you must move on then it must be.

Marcelo said...

Hasta el fin estoy con vos. No importa lo bueno o malo que venga....se fuerte y sobre todo, se feliz. Te adoro